Welcome to June! I love this month for several reasons: it's my birthday (June 7), it's cold in Brazil then I can wear my favorite winter stuff, it's the month of Northeast parties (called Festa de São João, google it), and it's the precisely the middle of the year. Well, I'm excited about my birthday. This year I'll not have a party nor a friend gathering. Last year I celebrated at a Karaoke Bar and was so, so funny! I also remember how happy I was with my (ex)boyfriend and my friends. We were all together, singing, drinking, and having so much fun! I miss many of these guys and these enjoyable - and memorable - moments. Hopefully, this year will be the first time in years to celebrate my birthday with my family. I left my parents' house in 2010, and I came back in January 2020. But in July I'll be back to Brasilia (I hope).
Monday, I went to my weekly psychologist session, and I realized that social distancing is making me understand what people I want to keep in my life. Also, I'm missing some but not others. I realized how some people are so so crucial for me. I realized that I miss hugs (I used to hate hugs) and a hot kiss from a lovely guy (ops, sorry). Social distancing is making me more aware of my mental needs (I quit smoking, and I start to take care of my face skin). Social distancing posed me a daily question: do you miss your ex, or do you miss *someone*? I also tried to fulfill all the social distancing hardships through exercises (I work out four times/week) and planning my future academic career. Well, this is challenging.
Despite several self-learning, death tolls due to COVID-19 are still rampant in Brazil, and I don't know what will happen. I'm not afraid because in Brazil we have a lot of faith (not in our governments) but in ourselves. Brazilian people are survivors: we survive many years of corruption and are surviving under Bolsonaro (yes, we deserve a trophy!). Unfortunately, each day 1,000 people die because of negligence and denialism of our government. Surviving in Brazil was always a motto to our people, but now is more challenging than ever: a pandemic scenario coupled with a political turmoil fueled by misinformation, fake news, and post-truth.